Am
I supposed to be interested in every little thing Ana does? Is this
the fault of me as the reader, or of James as the author? Because
honestly I don't give a shit. Also again with the band names slipped
in. Snow Patrol. Blaring? Really? They can blare?
What
am I going to do? I
want him, but on his terms?
Yup.
Now smile pretty and put this lipstick on.
My
research has told me that legally it’s unenforceable. He must know
that.
It
actually makes me more angry that I had to slough through the last
chapter and the PAGES of that stupid contract to have them say “But
he can't REALLY do anything about it.” Though if it WERE legally
enforceable we could make this book go from romance to horror real
fast. She wants out, but no, her reasons don't meet Grey's criteria,
and as she struggles more and more desperately to get out he makes it
harder and harder for her to. Using his power to force her hand he
makes her renew the contract before it's up, keeps her away from her
friends and family so she can't get help and has the cops under his thumb so when she tries to go to them... Man that would be a way better book.
It
illustrates what I can expect from him and what he expects from me –
my total submission. Am I prepared to give him that? Am I even
capable?
Oh,
Ana, sweety. Yes. Yes you are.
I
am plagued by one question - why is he like this? Is it because he
was seduced at such a young age? I just don’t know. He’s still
such a mystery.
MOLESTED.
The word is MOLESTED not seduced. Stop trying to romanticize it, and
James stop using sexual trauma to flesh out your angsty hero unless
you're going to treat it with the respect it deserves. Which you are
clearly incapable of, so just keep your grubby paws off of big scary
issues and stick to writing hilariously bad sex scenes.
So
Ana keeps jogging and then Kate makes her sit through a fashion
parade of all the bikinis and sarongs she bought for her vacation and
Ana is feeling inadequate because ZOMG KATE HAS A PERFECT FIGURE AND
IS SO PERFECT AND BLOND! This isn't the first time Ana has felt inadequate because she was next to a blond. There were the
receptionists in chapter 1, Grey's Mother, and repeatedly Kate, but I
feel all the women in this book are blonds with the exception of Ana.
Is this really James trying to “Other” her main character? By
making her have brown hair. THE HORROR! So Ana trudges back to her
room to send Grey an e-mail.
Okay,
I’ve seen enough.
It
was nice knowing you.
Ana
I
stared in naked glee at these lines until it went on to tell me she
was kidding and she hoped Grey would find it funny! No, really. She
thinks this is a joke. Telling a man who has very explicitly said
“If this shit isn't okay with you let me know and we'll leave it at
that.” and has fully expected her to bolt from the get-go that
she's actually not okay with this with NO HINT of it being anything
but a very abrupt brush off will be clearly taken as the HILARIOUS
joke it was meant to be! I love getting jokingly rejected by the
object of my affection!
Ana
then starts getting anxious because she doesn't get an instant reply.
Again. We have a 22 year old who DOESN'T GRASP HOW E-MAIL WORKS.
I
don’t know why I glance up, maybe I catch a slight movement from
the corner of my eye, I don’t know, but when I do, he’s standing
in the doorway of my bedroom watching me intently. He’s wearing his
grey flannel pants and a white linen shirt, gently twirling his car
keys. I pull my ear buds out and freeze.
Fuck!
WHAT
THE HELL NINJA?! So Grey reads her saying “Nice knowing you” and
rather then saying “Well, she's not into this. Bummer.” and
moving on with his life as a normal person would and he made it sound like he would... SHOWS UP AT HER
HOUSE. If she WAS dumping him and wanted to do it in person, she
would have fucking done it in person, and SHOWING UP UNINVITED AND
WITHOUT WARNING at her home is just... So fucking creepy. If I had
told a guy I went out with a few times “Sorry but this isn't
working” over the phone or by e-mail and he then TURNED UP ON MY
DOORSTEP I would be considering a call to the cops. I also really
hope Kate let him in otherwise Ana, seriously, cops. Now.
“I
felt that your email warranted a reply in person,” he explains
dryly.
Phone
call, sure. Phone call to ASK if you could come over? Also fine. For
someone making such a huge deal about Ana's wishes and consent you
sure don't give much thought to them, Grey.
“May
I sit?” he asks, his eyes now dancing with humor – thank
heavens – maybe he’ll see the funny side?
Want
to know what would help him see the humor? You telling him it was a
really bad joke. Naturally she won't and I'll just want to shake Elwood (my laptop) and scream at him some more.
How
am I going to dig myself out of this? If I tell him it was a joke, I
don’t think he’ll be impressed.
SO
YOU'LL ACCIDENTALLY DUMP HIM INSTEAD?! Honestly. So Grey is giving
her the “So, NICE knowing me, huh?” and Ana rather then saying
“NO IT WAS A SNARKY JOKE! I WAS BEING SASSY!” is all “you were
supposed to respond by e-mail...” You couldn't have even thrown a
smiley face in there? So they stare at each other with awkward boners
and then we get this.
I
watch hypnotized as his hand moves to my second pigtail, and pulling
the hair tie, he loosens the braid with his long, skilled fingers.
She
just, as far as he knows, dumped him. Now he is sitting on her bed. Doing her hair. Next she'll bust out Kate's copy of Cosmo and
they'll look for nipples on the models! No, really. What the hell?
I'm going to ignore how strange this it to me. This is a gesture that
seems far too intimate to be done with someone who just dumped you.
“Why,
Anastasia?” His fingers circle my ear, and very softly, he tugs my
earlobe, rhythmically. It’s so sexual.
Grey
asks a fair question - ignoring the incredible ignorance of boundaries and personal space he's using to ask it. Ana is getting distracted by MORE BONERS.
“I
needed time to think,” I whisper. I’m all rabbit/headlights,
moth/flame, bird/snake… and he knows exactly what he’s doing to
me.
“Think
about what, Anastasia?”
“You.”
“And
you decided that it was nice knowing me? Do you mean knowing me in
the biblical sense?”
Grey,
you're an asshole. Do you feel that she used you for your body and
you're upset? Is that's whats going on here?
“I
went to Sunday School, Anastasia. It taught me a great deal.”
“I
don’t remember reading about nipple clamps in the Bible. Perhaps
you were taught from a modern translation.”
Again,
Ana, you`re going to make him think you`re dumping him, not being coy
and cute.
“Well,
I thought I should come and remind you how nice
it
was knowing me.”
Holy
crap. I stare at him open mouthed, and his fingers move from my ear
to my chin.
“What
do you say to that, Miss Steele?”
That`s
right boys and girls. Grey, who has basically just been dumped, has
turned up in Ana`s bedroom to make a pass at her. What, is his plan
to ROCK HER WORLD and then just be all ``AND YOU`RE GIVING THIS UP
BITCH!``and
then strut out? Either
way, Ana pounces him but somehow he ends up on top. ? Even James is all
“Er, I'm not quite sure how this would physically work so I'm just
going to gloss it over...”. OR she is sneakily giving us more hints
that he is, in fact, a warlock.
His
tongue is in my mouth, claiming and possessing me, and I revel in the
force he uses. I feel him against the length of my body. He wants me,
and this does strange, delicious things to my insides. Not Kate
in her little bikinis, not one of the fifteen, not evil Mrs.
Robinson. Me. This beautiful man wants me. My inner goddess glows so
bright she could light up Portland.
Ana's
inner Goddess is a light bulb? That explains a lot, actually... So Ana
has had guys chasing her before. Like Jose, and Paul. They not only
make passes at her, they CONTINUE to make passes at her even after
she says no. Despite this it has never occurred to her that she could
be attractive and wanted. Ana is THAT insecure. Also how do you claim
and posses someone with your tongue? What does that even entail? Is
he licking “CHRISTIAN GREY WUZ HERE” on her forehead?
“Trust
me?” he breathes.
I
nod, wide-eyed, my heart bouncing off my ribs, my blood thundering
around my body.
He
reaches down, and from his pants pocket, he takes out his silver grey
silk tie… that
silver
grey woven tie that leaves small impressions of its weave on my skin.
You
cocky son of a cunt-weasle. He brought his tie. That's like going on
a first date with a stack of condoms. So he ties her to the bed its
self this time.
“If
you struggle, I’ll tie your feet too. If you make a noise,
Anastasia, I will gag you. Keep quiet. Katherine is probably outside
listening right now.”
Does
it even matter if Kate hears? Also she's outside listening? Really? I
mean, my old room mate's bedroom and mine shared a wall. Sometimes, I
heard.... Things. She did, too. It HAPPENS. Occasionally there would
be high-fives exchanged afterwards, and that one time I heard “WHAT
ARE YOU DOING?”* through the wall. I may have screamed “You're
doing it wrong!” back. However Ana apparently is SO SHOCKED by the
thought of Kate hearing her banging that she zips it.
Also,
how creepy is that line? He's turned up after getting dumped (though
not really) to fuck Ana so senseless that she'll agree to be his
slave. He is now rendering her immobile and silent so she can't
scream for help? So he undresses her, and strips down to his pants or
underpants (not sure, he undoes his pants but it doesn't specify he
takes them off).
“I
think you’ve seen too much,” he chuckles slyly. He sits astride
me again, pulls my t-shirt up, and I think he’s going to take it
off me, but he rolls it up to my neck and then pulls it up over my
head so he can see my mouth and my nose, but it covers my eyes.
And
then he goes to get a drink. No, really. I am somehow not even a
little surprised that he'd tied her up, threatened to gag her, and
left her mostly naked and writhing to wander off and get a drink. She
even offered him one earlier. How inconsiderate of him!
I
can make out low rumblings, and I know he’s talking to Kate – oh
no… he’s
practically naked. What’s
she going to say?
You
were worried about her hearing you fucking, but it's fine to wander
around and make yourself at home in Ana's place when you're half
naked. Kate can see that, she just can't know Ana is enjoying
herself. Alright, then.
It’s
white wine. It’s so unexpected, hot,
though it’s chilled, and Christian’s lips are cool.
“More?”
he whispers.
I
nod. It tastes all the more divine because it’s been in his
mouth.
He leans down, and I drink another mouthful from his lips… oh
my.
Mmmm. Spit-wine. Wait,
you just said there was ice in that glass. He's putting ice into
wine?! BLASPHEMY! Also where the hell did this wine come from? Did he
bring it himself? Did he swipe a bottle from Kate?
“Is
this nice?”
he asks, but I hear the edge in his voice.
I
tense.
Man,
I think he's more pissed that she said it was “nice knowing him”
then the fact that she basically just dumped him. Also, I want to
point out that Ana gets tense and nervous with him, yet consents to
letting him tie her up and do she doesn't know what. Black magic?
Black magic. So he starts kissing her all over leaving bits of ice in
her mouth and basically sets up a body shot on her. Rather then, you
know, proceed to do the shot he is all “NO ANA YOU MUST NOT MOVE OR
YOU WILL SPILL THE WINE AND I WILL PUNISH YOU IF YOU DO!” Alright,
then.
“If
you spill the wine, I won’t let you come,”
Can
you really stop that? Sometimes these things just... Happen. So Grey
keeps poking and prodding and teasing and Ana is squirming and
literally begging for him to dick her. Dick her hard.
His
fingers slip into my panties, and I’m rewarded with his unguarded
sharp intake of air.
“Oh,
baby,” he murmurs and he pushes two fingers inside me.
I
gasp.
“Ready
for me so soon,” he says.
You've
been teasing her long enough that this is a reasonable thing. Were
the women he was with before that hard to get going? Or is this the
REAL reason he likes Ana? She's THIS into him.
“You
are a greedy girl,”
I
thought she was sweet. Didn't we go over that a few chapters back?
You were all over how sweet she was. Now she's greedy because she's
enjoying you finger blasting her. Also going to bet on just one
orgasm this chapter.
His
tongue mirrors the actions of his fingers, claiming me.
I
don't know about you, but I am not nearly dexterous enough to write
“Property of Erika” with my tongue and have it be anywhere near
legible.
My
legs begin to stiffen as I push against his hand. He gentles his
hand, so I’m brought back from the brink.
I
know I ranted that every vagina is different a few chapters ago, but
this doesn't make sense to me. If you're at the brink and about to go
over, unless he just stops completely, odds are you're going anyways.
“This
is your punishment, so close and yet so far. Is this nice?”
Lil
bit.
So
Ana is BEGGING for him to just fuck her already, but honestly I
imagine one or two thrusts and she'd just be done if she's already
this close.
“Shall
I fuck you this way, or this way, or this way? There’s an endless
choice,”
We
are not told WHAT any of these ways are, but I imagine he's just
grabbing her legs and it plays out like this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFHjdYoNb_Y
(24 seconds in).
He
withdraws his hand and reaches over to the bedside table for a foil
packet.
Wait,
Ana has condoms on her bedside table? Or did he bring his own? Where
did this thing come from? Or is it the half finished burrito Ana had
earlier?
“How
nice
is
this?” he says as he strokes himself.
“I
meant it as a joke,” I whimper.
If
you think your significant other is keeping things from you, just
remember, you can fuck it out of them.
He
raises his eyebrows as his hand moves up and down his impressive
length.
He
actually has to lean over to get to the end of it.
“A
joke?” His voice is menacingly soft.
“Yes.
Please, Christian,” I beseech him.
“Are
you laughing now?”
“No,”
I mewl.
And
then he sets out a saucer of cream and gets out the catnip. Mewl.
Honestly, the images that conjures for me are all deeply unpleasant.
So he is then “WOO NOT DUMPED!” and flips her over for some
celebratory doggie style sex.
He
pushes both my knees up the bed so my behind is in the air, and he
slaps me hard.
I'm
assuming he's slapping her ass?
I
cry out – from the slap and from his sudden assault, and I come
instantly again and again, falling apart beneath him as he
continues to slam deliciously into me.
EL
James we're buying you a thesaurus for Christmas. Between all the
“cocking” of heads, “delicious” clenching, "slamming" of wangs and “oh my” I
see the potential for a very dangerous drinking game. Also is she
coming “again and again” or is he just jack hammering her rapid
fire?
I
can’t take this… and he pounds on and on and on... then I’m
building again… surely not… no…
“Come
on, Anastasia, again,” he growls through clenched teeth, and
unbelievably, my body responds, convulsing around him as I climax
anew, calling out his name.
Apparently
one of Grey's black magic powers is orgasm commands. That... Actually
that's a pretty awesome power, though I would use it for such evil.
Person in front of me at the store is being a cock hole? INSTA-GASM!
She also shatters. Again. See above about thesaurus and drinking
game. Would anyone be interested in seeing a 50 Shades of Grey
drinking game?
“How
nice
was
that?” he asks through his gritted teeth.
Considering
this was supposed to be angry fucking, I'm surprised that this is as
bad as it was. I would have expected a lot more... Violent. So he
tucks Ana, who is a quivering damp mess, into bed. Despite having
just been super pissed about being called nice.
“That
was really nice,” I whisper, smiling coyly.
“There’s
that word again.”
“You
don’t like that word?”
“No.
It doesn’t do it for me at all.”
“Oh
– I don’t know… it seems to have a very beneficial effect on
you.”
“I’m
a beneficial effect, now am I? Could you wound my ego any further,
Miss Steele?”
“I
don’t think there’s anything wrong with your ego.” But even as
I say it, I don’t feel the conviction of my words - something
elusive crosses my mind, a fleeting thought, but it’s lost before I
can grasp it.
So
he was pissed because he felt used for his body. His response it to
go and rage-fuck Ana. Also there is a lot wrong with his ego. Mainly
the massive size of it.
“So,
that email was your idea of a joke.”
I
smile apologetically at him and shrug.
OH
GOOD THEY'VE STOPPED FIGHTING I WAS SO WORRIED. Sigh.
“I
was going to email them to you, but you kind of interrupted me.”
“Coitus
Interruptus.”
The
Boy happened to look over and see that on my screen. “Coitus
Interruptus? What the fuck?”
“Yeah.
I really fucking hate this book”
I
guess if you decided to cut someone off mid-thought with a blow job
it would be a reasonable thing to scream before doing so... So now
Ana and Grey are about to discuss some of the specifics of the
contract.
“Only
certain things are funny, Anastasia. I thought you were saying no, no
discussion at all.” His voice drops.
“I
don’t know yet. I haven’t made up my mind. Will you collar me?”
I
don't blame Grey for being upset that Ana was just saying “Know
what? No. Just no.” However that would be her RIGHT. She doesn't
owe him an explanation as to why she's backing out, and her “no”
should be just that. No. No debate, no discussion, I'm out. She
doesn't owe him negotiations, and she doesn't owe him an explanation.
Also
yes, collaring is a thing. It's about what it sounds like. You wear a
collar to show you're “owned”. Grey hasn't done it to anyone
before, but he has had it done to him.
…
And
his Mother didn't stop and say “Hey, son, why are you suddenly
wearing a dog collar around the house?”
“By
Mrs. Robinson?”
“Mrs.
Robinson!” he laughs loudly, freely, and he looks so young and
carefree, his head thrown back, his laughter infectious.
I
grin back at him.
“I’ll
tell her you said that, she’ll love it.”
“You
still talk to her regularly?” I can’t keep the shock out of my
voice.
“Yes.”
He’s serious now.
You
should SEE the post-cards that she sends him. Pure filth. Also Ana is
JEALOUS. Like, SUPER jealous. As the plot dictates she must be.
Because Mrs. Robinson is going to be the boss fight.
“So
you have someone you can discuss your alternative lifestyle with, but
I’m not allowed.”
He
frowns.
“I
don’t think I’ve ever thought about it like that. Mrs. Robinson
was part of that lifestyle. I told you, she’s a good friend
now. If you’d like, I can introduce you to one of my former subs,
you could talk to her.”
What?
Is he deliberately trying to upset me?
Is
Grey that guy who keeps all of his ex-girl friends on the back
burner? He totally is, isn't he? I on one hand like that he offers to
introduce her to someone who knows the ins and outs. On the other
hand, I'd be pissed if my new boyfriend was offering to introduce me
to his ex so we could compare notes. “She gave a really great blow
job. Ask her about that!”
Ana,
shockingly, gets pissed, and Grey is a little miffed by this. …
Really? You can't see where she's coming from here? However, the text
doesn't play it as this. It plays it off as NO ANA IS JEALOUS.
“Are
you staying?”
...
Besides, I told you, I don’t sleep with girlfriends, slaves, subs,
or anyone. Friday and Saturday night were exceptions. It won’t
happen again.” I can hear the resolve behind his soft, husky voice.
Suuuuure
it won't. So Ana, petulantly, is all “Well after that marathon
fucking I'm tired so if you're not going to snuggle GTFO.” He is
amused that she does so because NO OTHER WOMAN HAS BEFORE! Honestly
what sort of door-mats void of personality does he usually “date”?
“God,
I’d like to give you a good hiding. You’d feel a lot better, and
so would I.”
And
then with the leather we can make restraints! He's really just in
this for the arts and crafts. So Ana sees Grey out and laments that
she REALLY LIKES HIM BUT OH NO HE DOESN'T WANT A REAL GROWN UP
RELATIONSHIP! Dude, you're on, what, your third date? Slow down. Grey
then sucks her face a little and is all “WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO
ME?!”
My
answering smile is weak, completely dazzled by him, and I’m
reminded once more of Icarus soaring too close to the Sun.
STOP
REFERENCING FAIRY TALES AND MYTHS!
Dashing
back to my bedroom, I close the door and lean against it trying to
rationalize my feelings. I can’t. Sliding to the floor, I put my
head in my hands as my tears begin to flow.
What?
Really? You're seeing him in 48 hours. Kate then knocks and is all
“ANA WHAT DID HE DO?” and for the first time ever seems like she
might not actually be an awful friend. Until she comments on the
awful sex hair, but I'll even give her the pass as she was trying to
get her to laugh. Then Kate is all “YOU NEVER CRY BECAUSE YOU ARE
STRONG AND SUFFER SILENTLY LIKE A GOOD WOMAN SHOULD! WHAT DID THAT
AWFUL SEXY MAN DO TO YOU?!” no, she actually specifies that he's
attractive. Then she starts to brush the knots out of Ana's hair.
Didn't Grey braid her hair before the sex? How badly knotted can it
be?
“No,
saying I didn’t want to see him anymore.”
“And
he turns up? Ana, that’s genius.”
“Actually
it was a joke.”
“Oh.
Now I’m really confused.”
Patiently,
I explain the essence of my email without giving anything away.
I'm
confused why you need to specify you're being patient when the e-mail
was all of what, six words? Couldn't cover for the BDSM bits with
“I'm still not sure because of the age gap/difference in life
stages etc”? Also Kate, you are an awful excuse of a woman. You're
applauding your friend for being a manipulative harpy, and when she's
all “No, no, I'm awful for other reasons!” you're confused. I
hate you both.
“I’d
say he’s completely smitten with you.”
I
frown. Christian,
smitten with me? Hardly. He’s
just looking for a new toy – a convenient new toy that he can
bed and do unspeakable things to. My heart tightens painfully. This
is the reality.
Just
once I'd like to read a romance novel where the couple getting
together isn't needlessly drawn out. Grey has gone to great lengths
to tell you how into you he is. How uncharacteristically into you
he is. Yet you're still going “NO I'M JUST AN EASY MARK FOR HIM
THAT'S ALL HE WANTS!” I know you don't know tons about the “scene”
but there are easier ways to find someone into BDSM then picking up
random women off the street (or office floor, as it were.). This
angst is all so forced and just makes me want to pimp slap Ana and be
all “BITCH PLEASE!”
“He
came here to fuck me, that’s all.”
“Who
said romance was dead?” she whispers horrified.
It's
called a booty call. This is also after he has flown her in his
helicopter to Seattle, fed her, fucked her in a variety of ways,
driven her BACK to Seattle, bought her a computer, and brought her
out to a fancy dinner. THAT FIEND HOW DARE HE NOT MAKE AN EFFORT
OUTSIDE OF THE BEDROOM!
“He
uses sex as a weapon.”
“Fuck
you into submission?” She shakes her head disapprovingly. I blink
rapidly at her, and I can feel the blush as it spreads across my
face. Oh…
spot on, Katherine Kavanagh, Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist.
OH
GOD IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW! GREY'S GARGANTUAN PENIS IS ACTUALLY A
WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION! If YOUR junk could shoot lasers, YOU
would use sex as a weapon, too! Snark aside (I know, I know, that's
the whole reason you come here but bear with me), so very much is
wrong with this statement. For example, Ana being such a slave to her
genitals that “fucking her into submission” actually works, and
her calling Kate a Pulitzer Prize worthy journalist for using the
obvious turn of phrase here. Moving past my weary rage at Kate and
Ana though, there IS something seriously wrong with using sex as
leverage. Sex is an intimate thing** and using it like a weapon is a
blatant disregard of the trust the other person has put in you. Then
again, in my world I don't need “weapons” within my relationship.
Unless we're counting a push-up bra and a bitching dinner spread as
weapons. If those count then I could kill a man, but I only use my
powers for good, honest!
So
Ana continues to sulk that he doesn't make love, he fucks, and Kate
is all “HURR DURR HE HAS COMMITMENT ISSUES I KNEW SOMETHING WAS
WEIRD ABOUT HIM!” Show of hands of people who have commitment
issues? Because honestly, that shit is COMMON. I told The Boy off for
asking me to move in too many times before we actually did. My ex
apparently insists the main reason I left him is commitment issues. I
think everyone has some level of commitment issues. Why does that
register as “weird” to Kate? Isn't there the stereotype that ALL
men have commitment issues? It's bullshit, but it's out there. Women
want snuggles and relationships and babies and men just want sex and
it's up to the woman to snare her in her sexy trap and trick him into a relationship! AmIrite ladies? Answer – Not even a little. Despite my not being right on this, Kate shouldn't be pegging Grey as "weird" for it, is my point. Ana keeps
angsting, and honestly? I've watched paint dry and it's been more
interesting. And waaay less obnoxious and whiny.
Inwardly,
I pine. Oh Kate... I wish I could tell you everything,
everything about this strange, sad, kinky guy, and you could tell me
to forget about him. Stop me from being a fool.
“I
guess it’s all a little overwhelming,” I murmur. That’s
the understatement of the year.
See?
Don't you just want to shake her like a baby?
Also,
some actual potential candidates for understatement of the year:
It's
not big deal, just the zombie apocalypse. What evs.
50
Shades of Grey is the worst book ever written.
This
book only makes me want to drink a little.
It's
just a flesh wound.
Abraham
Lincoln Vampire Hunter was only okay.***
That
dress makes you look a touch on the plump side.
So
Ana decides that she just can't bear to talk about Grey anymore
(Yay?) and asks Kate about Elliot. Since Kate's world revolvers
around her she happily starts to gush about ZOMG I'M SO HAPPY! … If
your BFFF is depressed and crying when she's not the crying type over
a guy, this is the LAST thing you should do. Down play that shit.
“Oh, yeah. The new boyfriend is good” and then continue onto a
new topic. Gushing about how AWESOME and how HAPPY you are is just
dickish.
“Oh,
I meant to say. Your dad called while you were… err, occupied.
Apparently Bob has sustained some injury, so your mom and he can’t
make graduation. But your dad will be here Thursday. He wants you to
call.”
“Oh...
my mom never called me. Is Bob okay?”
You
couldn't even TRY to come up with an injury, EL James? I am also
confused. Ray, Ana's “Dad” (husband number 2 if memory serves)
called to tell Ana that his ex-wifes new husband is hurt so she won't
make it to grad. I suppose it's possible that her Mother is on
awesome terms with her ex-husband because he's been so awesome to her
daughter (maybe?) but... Really? You can't call your own daughter to
say “Sweetie I'm so sorry I can't make it to your grad the husband
has seriously hurt himself and I can't leave him. I'll come down and
visit when I can and make it up to you!” Instead she lets her
ex-husband do the dirty work for her. It must have taken about the same amount of time to call Ray as it would have to call Ana. If I were Ana here, I would be
PISSED. Instead she is calm and detached. “He's okay? Alright.
That's nice. I'll call Dad and Mom tomorrow. I am fine now.” and so
Kate, now no longer needed, exits stage left.
So
Ana goes over the contract, again, and makes notes. She then checks
her e-mail and Grey has nothing better to do then send Ana constant
notes so there's one waiting for her. It sounds weirdly formal until
he's all “Sleep well baby!” and then his usual sign off which is
attached to all his e-mails that reinforces that he is AN IMPORTANT BUSINESS MAN WITH IMPORTANT BUSINESS. Not so important he can't
drop everything at a moments notice to go rage-fuck his new
girlfriend, but you know. He's important.
So
Ana sends him her list of issues. It's weirdly legal sounding, but I
actually don't hate Ana for these. This is the closest thing she has
been to reasonable yet.
The
numbers refer to clauses:2: Not sure why this is solely for MY
benefit – ie to explore MY sensuality and limits. I’m sure I
wouldn’t need a ten-page contract to do that! Surely this is for
YOUR benefit.4: As you are aware you are my only sexual partner. I
don’t take drugs, and I’ve not had any blood transfusions. I’m
probably safe. What about you?8: I can terminate at any time if I
don’t think you’re sticking to the agreed limits. Okay – I like
this.
Do
you really need to point out the things you like?
9:
Obey you in all things? Accept without hesitation your discipline? We
need to talk about this.
“We
need to talk about this” I hope translates to “Oh hell no.”
11:
One month trial period. Not three.
OH
MY GOD YOU GUYS! I am scared. Ana's logic has lined up with my own.
Though I would be saying “contract can be renegotiated at any
point for the first three months because I'm going in blind” but
I'm just happy that Ana isn't blindly signing things again.
15.2:
Using my body as you see fit sexually or otherwise – please define
“or otherwise.”
I
also want to know what “or otherwise” means. Ride her like a
pony? Make sandwiches?
15.19:
Touching myself without your permission. What’s the problem with
this? You know I don’t do it anyway.
Now
that you've had your sexual awakening that might change princess.
Though this bothers me. WHY does the text need to keep pointing out
how Ana doesn't touch herself? Is this just so she can be SOOO
sexually frustrated later when Grey is too busy to bone her because
she can't just grab a vibrator and go to town?
15.22:
I can’t look into your eyes? Why?
15.24:
Why can’t I touch you?
“Also
why am I not allowed to smell your dirty underpants?”
Rules:Sleep
– I’ll agree to 6 hours. Food – I am not eating food from a
prescribed list. The food list goes or I do – Deal breaker. Clothes
– as long as I only have to wear your clothes when I’m with
you... okay. Exercise – We agreed 3 hours, this still says 4.
So
accepting what he says without question is a discussion point, but
food list is non-negotiable? Also despite the fact that we started
this chapter with Ana going for a jog she's really hung up on not
working out.
Soft
Limits:Can we go through all of these? No Fisting of any kind. What
is suspension? Genital Clamps – you have got to be kidding me.
The
thought of being collared, which is wearing a collar in public to
show you're “owned” is a concern but genital clamps MUST be a
joke you guys! Nipple clamps seem like they could be fun. Who doesn't
love having something that's hooked up to a car battery hooked up to
their nipples!? Genital clamps can only be more fun, right? I am also endlessly sad that fisting is off the table as the sound of my sorrow at all those lost jokes is heart breaking, honest.
So while I'm actually really glad to see Ana NOT being a drooling waste of space, I'm also bothered. Why? Because it is TOTALLY inconsistent with everything else we've seen of her character. James is TRYING to sell us Ana as an independent, smart, capable, but naive girl. These are not the things Ana are, and it is irking me endlessly that James keeps dropping these jarring (if not reliving) moments of Ana being sensible to try and fit her into this mold.
Grey
once again INSTANTLY e-mails her back and is all “Well that's a
long list” not really “why are you still up?” and Ana thinks
she's SO CLEVER and is all “I was working on it before a passing
control freak turned up to fuck my brains out” and Grey once again
INSTANTLY RESPONDS by telling her to go to bed NOW.
GREY
STOP SOUNDING LIKE A DAD! Though I want to give credit where credit
is due. In his I AM SO IMPORTANT e-mail signature in this one there
is a small change.
Christian
GreyCEO & Control Freak, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
I
hope that auto-saves as his new signature and he accidentally sends an e-mail to a random
person with that in there.
Oh…
shouty capitals! I
switch off. How can he intimidate me when he’s six miles away?
Black
magic. How many times must we go over this?
Ana
then puts herself to bed, still feeling sulky and sad, and that is
the end of this chapter. I hope you enjoyed reading my rants on it
more then I enjoyed reading this chapter.
As
always, your comments/encouragements/drink recipes/linking this blog
elsewhere are endlessly appreciated. Till Tuesday!
*He
was apparently trying to burrow between the mattress and the box
spring. I stand by my statement.
**
Well, you know. It can be not intimate, but we're talking within the
bounds of a relationship here.
***
Seriously, most fun I have had at a movie in as long as I can recall
off hand.
